As a natural born empath who works in the hospital, I’ve learned that it’s important to cut cords and clear energy. We are all naturally connected to one another, however cords, similar to that of the umbilical cord that connects mother to baby, sometimes are created between us as adults. These cords are used to drain energy from each other and can take a toll on one’s health. As adults, we are capable of drawing on our own strength and inner resources for sustenance; thus, ideally, there is no reason to drain energy from others. In the past, I would go to a psychic who would cut up to three cords per session and tell me what the underlying cause of this was. However, as I’ve become more in tune with myself, I’ve found that it’s possible to cut my own cords.
I actually came upon this discovery by chance while reading Dina Glouberman’s books. She talks extensively about visualization and imagery in shaping, coping, and changing one’s life. Not long after this, I was reading The Michael Teachings information found on their website and they talked about cutting cords and clearing energy and mentioned the use of imagination, which is working with visual images or feeling) to help complete the task. I decided to give this a try.
Closing my eyes, I saw myself sitting cross-legged with numerous cords coming out of me and reaching to others. There were already a couple people I had in mind as those cords felt stronger, were active, and felt larger to me. I could feel their pull as well as the emotions, drain, longing, or even desire to pull away that these cords elicited from me. The other cords, I knew, were created more from my time in the hospital or from people I might’ve known or connected with at some time prior. But now, in my mind’s eye, I could see them. Many of the cords were thin and dark and when I cut them they snapped like twigs. I then visualized a warm yellow light shining on the areas where the cords were cut for healing and then I visualized a warm greenish-blue light covering me and used this light not only to further heal but also to protect my energy going forward.
After completing this process, I began to feel lighter and more relaxed. I could no longer feel the drain or the pull from the active cords and I feel much lighter as a result of dropping the inactive cords. My shoulders loosened and I no longer felt the extensive drain I did before from many of the active cords. That said, cords do grow back and so I’ve found it helpful to do this process maybe two times a day. It truly helped and my mind feels clearer and my body much lighter.
I got my Michael’s channelled chart back a few days ago and since then I’ve just been processing it. For one thing, I knew I was “rare”. I can sense it. Initially, I found myself thinking maybe I’m a 2nd or 3rd level Old soul, maybe I’m a Mature soul in the late stages. I also wasn’t sure if I was really a Sage, a Scholar, a Priest, or a Server soul. Turns out I’m 5th Level Old Priest soul. I read about what each of that looks like and even ordered the interpretation of the chart since some of the information surprised me. I’m still waiting on the results.
For one thing, it seems like I am a little bit of this and a little bit of that. Maybe that’s why I resonated with everything. It’s very different from people who seem to be ALL one thing or who are what I consider to be extreme. I never was. My goal is Flow, I’m a Realist, I have more masculine energy than feminine, my chief obstacle is arrogance. My main center is physical and I tend to be more in the emotional part of the physical center. I think the emotional part of the physical center is the only thing that truly lined up with my Priest Soul side since Priest souls tend to prefer emotional centering. But being in the physical centering means that I tend to be more “sexual” than most Priest souls.
After I got my chart, I was trying to be cheap and not purchase an interpretation of the information since I have the books. I figured I could do it myself. And in a way I did. I know what the information means for the most part but I wanted to get the bigger picture and see what it overall means for me. So far, all I got is, “I’m a big.fucking.puzzle.” Aren’t we all? Sure. But you’d have to admit that some people do stand out more than others at times. A lot of my information almost contradicted each other even though it was very accurate and very true of me. So I’m just going to wait patiently for the feedback.
Finally getting those answers helped to give me some kind of peace and clarity. It helped me to see in myself why it is my focus is almost always on the bigger picture, why I tend to be so spiritually minded, why people often seem to think me “cold” and
“detached” despite the fact that I do see what they’re seeing, I just am not able (or truly willing) to find myself in the midst of all the immediate emotional and intense drama. There’s always been a side of me that’s somehow able to be in the midst of struggle and strife and still be on the outside looking in asking “what is this all really about?” And I figured out long ago that not only are we all connected, but I see bits and pieces of myself in every single person I encounter. I often think, “That could have been me if…and I wasn’t aware of any other options or ways of viewing the situation” I think this chart helped explain it and put it all together for me.
I’ve been waiting for the results of my Michael channelled chart for several days now. During this time, I’ve had the opportunity to really ask myself a few questions. “What do I want?” “What am I looking for?” “Where do I think I’d find it?” And it occurred to me that I’ve been missing the point of all this. Self-exploration. As the process began to demand more of me than just research and reflection in the privacy of my own on home, I piled on a lot of clutter and came up with a lot of ways to distract myself from doing the difficult work of growth and exploration. But it’s so important to know oneself. In fact, I’d even venture to say that it’s the most important.
I’ve been going through a very transitionary time in my life where it’s come to my attention that I have been somewhat avoiding the going forward in my growth out of fear. Fear of making a mistake, fear of never being able to come back from that mistake. Arrogance. Arrogance and stubbornness has kept me back from living the life I want to lead for far too long. But I will never be happy if I don’t do the things I want to do, even if it doesn’t seem to make sense to those around me. I need to live my best life. To take the steps necessary to grow and to continue on the process of self-exploration.
Know Thyself. It’s the best advice I’ve ever gotten. It’s time for me to take it. Really take it and to not continue to allow myself to be deterred by those who simply see me as some weary/bored young adult or some lazy millennial Time to really dive deeply into myself and explore not just the information I’ve already known but have forgotten, but also the information I never knew. It’s time to get to know myself. Very well.
I might be taking a bit of a hiatus. But I’ll write whenever inspiration takes me.
I haven’t been on much. I know. Sorry about that. But lately I’ve just been enjoying and processing my life. I went to Trinidad, spent time with family, created new friendships and relationships, turned 25, and rediscovered what I enjoyed doing most in my life. It’s really simple. I’ve always known I just never quite let go enough to really to experience it. But it’s communicating with people. Connecting with them, counseling, teaching, sharing life with them. Being able to have the freedom to do that and to just experience life has taken the forefront for me.
I wrote in my previous blog about how unhappy or stressed I was with my attachment to institutions. But for the longest time I had convinced myself that I HAD to work a full-time job for whatever reason. But all my bills are paid, “debt” is manageable, and I decided that it’s time to really do things for myself. I think I always knew this but more than anything else, I like my freedom.
So this is where I’m at right now: switching to part-time work, sticking with part-time school, detaching from work institutions, and choosing my freedom, creativity, health, peace of mind, and inspiration. Because if I don’t let go, I’ll never really know what else is out there. In my head, I imagine that I’d be called lazy for this. But truth be told, I don’t care.